God's an Atheist was (in order of left brain to right brain):
Jason Pesch, Carlos Lastres, and Dylan Blair



Stumbled Over the Finite (2000)
All songs written by God's an Atheist
Produced by Jason Pesch
Mixed by Dylan Blair and Jason Pesch
Artwork by Dylan Blair
Keyboards on Raistlin's Lullaby by Matt Gray

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"But he knows not what it means...and I say AHH"
- kurt cobain
 

 
Pala | He Returns to the Spirituality of Nostalgia | Greetings | Any Remorse
Localized Waves of Pain | Shrillo | Raistlin's Lullaby | Saint's Crossing / Epilogue
 

 

Pala (lyrics by Dylan Blair)

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My Brave New World
I was conditioned by the State
To Labor and Consume
Because you can only buy opiate with faith

(chorus)
I want to live on the island of Pala
I want to once see the break of dawn
With open eyes and an open mind
How do I know and still get it wrong?

If only I could buy the man-made happiness
Instead of renting it every now and again
If agnosticism brings you down
Then hope and belief will make you insane

He Returns to the Spirituality of Nostalgia (lyrics by Dylan Blair)

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After death, he looks forward to the jungle gym once more

He even screamed back then,
Preconditioned screams of youth,
And tattered screams of ecstasy

This playground's been empty, no sign of kids for days
He looks to the stars to pass the others up
His time is now approaching, the days are ending, and his tears leave him dreading
There can be no remission; there never was a giving
It was the same in his youth

Underneath his house lived a cancer about my age
No mother, no breasts, no wanting
But oh, the child was singing, and sometimes he sees it reburn
And I return to the spirituality of nostalgia,
These dim memories of my youth

He even screamed back then,
Preconditioned screams of youth,
And tattered screams of ecstasy

Greetings (lyrics by Jason Pesch)

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Lord, he loves his misery
Nothing left but plants and trees
Silent winds that love to freeze
Ooh, they send me greetings

Stumbled upon captivity
Got these two eyes lookn' back at me
Waiting for his wrath I begin to plea
But he sends me greetings

Things are much clearer
When you get away from it all
Then you will see
Realization sets in

Death sends me greetings

Any Remorse (lyrics by Jason Pesch and Dylan Blair)

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I still remember a time
Our eyelids closed easily
Heard of unity through the chartreuse fields
When the guts splattered on the table I was petrified

You never show any remorse

When I found out what was going on
Conflicting timelines showed the mind
Patterns emerged from within
Never before had I wanted to cut off someone's limbs

You never show any remorse

I'll never go back there again

 Localized Waves of Pain (lyrics by Dylan Blair)

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I touch the heart of the moonlight coming through the windowpane
Sunlight just seems to burn away another day
Thought I finally let my thoughts flitter all away
But they chased me through the strawberry fields

(chorus)
Don't have any time for you
No way to love, need something less
I need some time to cry, my god, my purpose already died
And I can tell immortality is gone

Touch you there, my mind's aware that this is all a dream
Tried to leave my body here, but it always seems to catch me
It's a plastic flower and a purple tree
You'll never know how much those plastic flowers meant to me and those broken dreams

Shrillo (lyrics by Jason Pesch)

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Wake in the morn' you have no will.
To seize the day and live the thrill.
You Give in and take the pill.
Then you still will have no will.

It's callin'.
It's MINE.
It's callin'.
It's FINE.

An unpacked suitcase left to rot.
Don't know what I have but I know what I got.
An empty hand; full of ChAnGe it is not.
Still, I've got to get what I've got.

It's callin'.
It's MINE.
It's callin'.
It's FINE.

Raistlin's Lullaby (Instrumental)

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Saint's Crossing / Epilogue (lyrics by Jason Pesch)

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Look at what is happening right now to your town.
Men who should walk free are locked behind closed doors.
Watch your back my friend 'cause it could happen to you.
When the vultures have had their fill they'll be back for more.

OH woo-ooh-OH

Lustful pheromones drift my way in the air.
Turn my head to see the curves, oh yeah, but I still sing.
Wish that I could figure out why I have not a care.
Dr. Leary what is wrong with me? It is spring.

OH-woah-ooh-WA
OH-woo-ooh-OH

Tell me what's inside.
Will it blow my mind.
Tell me what is truth.
Let me know when you have a clue.

So you haven't got a place to lie your head.
Maybe its because they burned your queen size to the stake.
They want you to buy a special lens infra red.
But how can I live in a world so fake?

OH-woah-ooh-WA

Tell me what's inside.
Will it blow my mind.
Tell me what is truth.
Let me know when you have a clue.

(Epilogue)

I completed a revolution by pluto's side.
Feels like centuries have passed me by.
Never felt so alone ever in my life.
So I walk away into a consecrated night.